takkan tu pun nangis ?

why nangis ? 1. i'm tired of asking u out. beriya betul i. i rasa macam most of everytime i yang ajak "esok nak keluar tak" "isnin ni jadi keluar kan" "isnin ni u buat apa ja" "isnin ni kita keluar boleh" "kalau isnin u busy kita jumpa ahad malam lepas i balik keja boleh" sometimes i even begging. i put "pls" at the end of my sentence to ask u out. idk la sayang kalau u dapat other girl pun they will turn out like this one, completely akan terasa kalau they are the one yang beriya dalam segala hal. 2. i miss u most of the time pun i yang cakap i miss u. like every of our conversation mesti i akan cakap i rindu u dulu. i know la kalau tak cakap i miss u tu tak semestinya tak rindu. tapi kalau tak cakap macam mana nak tau kan :/ kalau u rindu u cakap la apa susah and paling win kalau u say it first. apa2 pun kalau u do it first, say it first baru nampak ikhlas baru nampak u really mean it. paling fak sekali now i tengah elak having conversation with u, i nak elak saying how much i miss u like once again its always me yang beriya saying i miss u. its hurt so bad. i keep crying everyday tak kira masa tak kira tempat. kat tempat keja pun i boleh suddenly nangis. i even burst in tears in front of my friend. i was actually nak lepak jap kat tempat dia cam need someone beside me cam nak lupa jap sedih i pastu open my mouth terus suara i lain and tears start to fall down :( 3. call i taktau la berapa juta kali im asking u to call me. i dah cakap banyak kali dah i suka bila u call i, i suka dengar suara u, i feel safe. at least i rasa macam u ada dengan i walaupun kenyatannya tak. bahagianya i kalau i dapat dengar suara u. i boleh tidur dengan tenang sayang, with a smile on my face. remember this sentence ? u say u will put me to sleep with a smile on my face. even conversation tu dah takda sbb kat fon lama tapi u tau kan memori kepala otak i luas seluas dunia ini :) u said that, u say u will put me sleeo with a smile on my face. now ? macam mana la i nak senyum kalau u asyik bagi i overthinking. kalau apa i bagitau, permintaan i yang tak perlukan duit tapi effort sahaja ni pun u tak boleh buat, tak boleh nak maintain. i bukan mintak benda bukan2 pun. i suruh u call i without me asking ja. alasan u, u takmau kacau i tido. kalau u call pukul 3 pagi sekalipun i angkat sayang i akan angkat sebab at least i know u ingat jugak kat i sebab tu u call. i penat :( seriously i penat sangat. i taktau nak buat apa dah. i bukan tak bagi tau u i nak apa, kenapa i boleh overthinking yang u tak sayang i dah, i bagi tau dah semua tu. perempuan mana ja tak overthinking kalau permintaan dia asyik kena reject :( i takut i tak boleh tahan and not by want a break up. tak. i will just left u hanging. hanging with reasons. reasons yang maybe u rasa tak make sense. walaupun deep inside its killing me twice then now, how hurts it will be to not know everything about u anymore. i will dissapear bawa diri i. is it too much ? permintaan i tu too much ka? i tak rasa keluar peluh, keluar duit pun. for now, i memang sengaja force myself tido awal. banyak sebab la better i tido awal ni. i dont have to deal with my feelings. nanti i asyik cakap i rindu u, i nak jumpa u, i nak dengar suara u, this and that. tahniah faizal i tidak lagi ingin buat permintaan seperti 3 di atas. u rasa u nak call, u akan call. u rindu, u akan cakap. u rasa u nak jumpa i, u akan ajak i. kan ? :) im sorry im not good enough, and if u rasa i tak jaga hati u, my words keep hurting u, im sorry.